Semi-Sweet-
You're bleeding sugar kisses upon my lips
I give you my love, always
You're only semi-sweet this morning
With your eyes closed in a daze
Your touch still lingers on without you
So I'll kiss you
And taste you on my lips
So I'll wake you
And I'll see you once more.
Courtney Roach
May 1, 2005
-Mel-
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Fake-
Ask yourself why he's not here
Ask yourself why they don't care
Tell yourself they're unaware
But they cry like you
Night after night, they carry with them
Tears of gold and a fit to struggle with
But you're the toy they control with all their might
You're the mannequin in the window late at night
Your lips are sewn with passion
Your reflection is the glass that lies upon the floor
The dirty floor you cry with
No hands were placed before you
With a regretful offer
Go back to your shadows
Return to the corners
Cry yourself to sleep again
And wake with one fake smile.
Courtney Roach
May 2, 2005
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Inner Child-
Stand before me
I can see your inner child shivering
I dream you like a fool
I'd comfort you
If you asked me to
Whisper silence into my mouth
And hush my forgotten lullabies
Wallow in your dark corner of self preservation
All the lights have flickered themselves dead
And I am below any parallel surface
And I can't believe you're smiling
This world is not happy
This life shall not be pitied
Step into the truth
And do us all a favor.
Courtney Roach
May 3, 2005
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Urban Prodigy-
Sing into my heart
I give you reason to deny
Any such emotion
Maybe you will bleed
Into my mouth
I call that love
And I will not forgive
And my heart will go on
And bleed through your fingers
My eyes watch you pace
To and from my memories
You are my urban prodigy
The only soul I'll ever understand
I impale you with strategy
It bites you with secrets
The snow tonight
Burns your lips to ashes
So much for talking strategy.
Courtney Roach
May 2, 2005
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Definition of Soulmates-
Look me in my broken eyes
Take my body while it's still here
Walk to me on shattered glass
And kiss me like you mean it
Your tears fall, cold and shy, within me
You are this hollow mess standing beside me
Let me be the love you wrap into your arms
I'd never struggle to break free...
Courtney Roach
May 5, 2005
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Drowning-
I saw you through her eyes last night
The victim of a kiss
Your tears were shattered in her palm
The cause of her pity
The stars choked on your breath
And emptied you of sorrow
Last night began your drowning
As she looked down at you
As she stifled her laughter
And it's blood that you sank in
It's my heart that she stole
And it's love that she faked
Just long enough for you to trust
Until you drowned within me.
Courtney Roach
May 8, 2005
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I'm Your Fool-
I stumbled into your hands
I fumbled with your grasp
But you're still chewing at my heart
You're still picking at my wounds
And you won't let me go
And I don't want to go
And you won't let me in
And their secrets won't let you in
I'm your fool
My tears are yours
And you're allowed to drown in pain
As long as I'm going too
As long as I'm drowning with you.
Courtney Roach
May 8, 2005
-Mel-
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The Wanderer-
So you broke through the night
And so you broke free
Your pleasure was unimagined
And the smile I gaze upon
Screams true happiness
Screams uncertainty
Silences any love for me
Turn around and don't forget
Run away and it'll be alright
So you gave yourself to them
And so you gave in
Your sadness was unforgettable
And the blue I look within
Tells haunting memories
Tells of tragedy
Hiding any thoughts of me
Turn around and don't forget
Run away and it'll be alright
Try a little harder
Not to be so alive
Wandering the daylight
Sharing the shadows
Silencing any love for me.
Courtney Roach
May 9, 2005
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An Innocent Fiction-
My words are scratched
And they are holding back
My truth is so long lasting
And this world is just passing
Me by
And these kisses are so unreal
And nothing you feel is real
So give me a reality
The nights are getting longer
And our time is running out
It's Summer, baby, and
It's time to let go
My heart is pained
And it won't let you in
My innocence is suffering
And your voice is finally muffling
Too late
And these lips are killing in amazement
And your visions aren't amazing
So try to amaze me
The nights are getting longer
And our time is running out
It's Summer, baby, and
It's time to let go
If running is the problem
Loving me won't solve it
It's Summer, baby, and
It's time to let me go.
Courtney Roach
May 9, 2005
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Angelic-
You're so sad
Like an angelic child
But we've no time
For make believe
Must I proof read
Every syllable?
And every flame in your eyes
Is no match for the scars on your thighs
So cry a little harder
The demons will wake you
The shadows will take you
Your life will forever be in my hands
And for that I can't thank you.
Courtney Roach
May 10, 2005
-Geralda-
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Houston-
Can you see me crying?
Go ahead and figure out
Why each day I burn out
All the flowers in my eyes are dying
Run away and feel no pain
Take those pills and feel forever sane
And so I'll always dream
Sunshine and kisses
It'll all wash away
Don't let anyone tell you it'll ever be okay.
Courtney Roach
May 12, 2005
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Sleeping In A Graveyard-
Walk the dark road
It brings sunny days
The flowers are all blushing
They're in love with you
Your skin is frail
As is my heart
Your smile is real
I never did believe in miracles
I see you dancing
Within your own scream
Yet you're laughing
Catching rain with your tears
I give you no more red
Just how many hearts have you bled?
You'll soon become a ghost
I'd like to linger with you.
Courtney Roach
May 12, 2005
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Friday The Thirteenth-
I burdened you
I loved you too
You're my worry
You'd hurry too
If you knew your heart would break
I broke you
I hurt you too
You're my ghost
You'd mostly cry too
If you knew she could be gone tomorrow
And my utopia has gone hazy
And my love has gotten crazy
You're not to blame
These lies lie tamed
You hold yourself steady
I need you to be ready
Just hold me in your heart
And never let us fall apart.
Courtney Roach
May 13, 2005
-Azra, Mel, Geralda-
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Never Colored With The Other Crayons-
The thunder is pouring down across my face
We're calling out your name
The darkness is a mystery
Your hollow face is history
The lightning strikes your broken skin
The smoke will never let me in
The sky is such an unknown gray
I will carry you through the rain
I always loved a good thunderstorm.
Courtney Roach
May 13, 2005
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Your Calling-
Sanity can do without you
Just for today
You speak of nothing
It's raining charades
Sadness bleeds in your eyes
Anger screams in your cries
You are bound to your lies
Head upon wall
You drown in mistaken vanity
Beauty is your nature
Death is your calling
You'll dream in silence from this moment on.
Courtney Roach
May 13, 2005
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Graveyard Shift-
Stare down the shadow looking back at you
Drink yourself to the bottom
Drown yourself in the neutral
No flashing lights
No warning signs
Only the darkness you've claimed unfeared
Ghosts walk the ground the lie beneath
Angels leave you waiting, breathless
Sleep would be your enemy
And dawn shall finally break
You're our newly noted insomniac.
Courtney Roach
May 15, 2005
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Message In A Bottle-
I see you lingering silently
Every hourglass second must be wasted
Every beating heart must be broken
You were my choice for love
And still you stand as thus
And in my eyes you lie
And still you cry beside me
And still you die within me
Every passion makes the chills grow deeper
All illusion that makes fake seem so real
And with one step begins a lifetime.
Courtney Roach
May 21, 2005
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Seeing Is Believing-
She's placed between us
Somewhere within sanity
I don't want to ask
If she still loves me
Seeing is believing
Her hand within another
Her kisses melt together
Dirt on my face
Memories to replace
Drowning deep within my heartache
I've fallen
Leave me.
Courtney Roach
May 22, 2005
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Fate-
I dream of October skies again
I speak of fashion as an item
These paved streets fall parallel to empty hearts once beating
Gray skies mean dark days and white lies
Power is what bleeds invisible
You're an open book, pages blank, begging for accessories
Starry-eyed, pacified, unfazed, everything in this crazed world
You're so alone, needing anyone to fill the empty spaces
Fate is undecided
Would you like it to decide you?
Look upon yourself.
Courtney Roach
May 24, 2005
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Blood Red-
I fell to heaven and its inexistence
We fell to paradise, hand in hand
Seeing beauty eye to eye
You sold me to the darkness
You showed me to your lover
Then you kissed her on the lips
And said goodbye to me
You called me a tragedy everlasting
Flowers lying, crying next to you
Smoke hiding you from safety
And still you fall in love
Reality is bliss, blind and unknown
We wore fear, blue in our eyes
Living lies head to toe
You forgot me in the end
You forgot my love
Then you made me cry
Let me go and let me die
You called me a tragedy everlasting
Flowers lying, crying next to you
Smoke hiding you from safety
And still you fall in love
Sadness fills my empty spaces
My lips blood red from memories
You vanish in the night.
Courtney Roach
May 26-28, 2005
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Unknown-
I hear your heart breaking
From inside my eyes
I cry
Choking on my smile
Pitied that it's fake
The darkness blisters you
You're alone now
And you turn to me
Eyes bleeding
Save yourself.
Courtney Roach
May 28, 2005
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Home-
Sweet Sixteen, and barely there
Hidden beneath your gravestone
Substitute me with your pleasant love making
And bury me beneath wilting palm trees
How would you know
How I feel?
How would you know
What is real?
How would you cry
If you were too far gone?
How would you feel
If you went too deep?
How would you find your way home?
Soft melodies are barely heard
Whispers cry away the sun
The black around your eyes proves insanity
And today I strip away our angst
How would you know
How I feel?
How would you know
What is real?
How would you cry
If you were too far gone?
How would you feel
If you went too deep?
How would you find your way home?
And you've fallen, blanketed with tears and darkness
I've never felt you smile as you dream
Only nightmares haunt your every thought behind closed eyes
Your cold hand is mine as I lie beside you
My shadow, my bloody now and then
You've won, swallowed me whole again.
Courtney Roach
May 29, 2005
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Shangri-La-
I dream of soft places where no one knows my name
Where no one's read my story and no one's seen my faces
Hanging on the Wanted Wall
Every sentence is cliché
Every shadow's smile is lined with kisses
The clouds caress the sun
The darkness carries beauty
And I never walk alone.
Courtney Roach
May 29, 2005
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Distopia-
I'm hurting here
Waiting here for something beautiful
She's found her way
She broke me and left me there
I'm bleeding
But you're far too gone to care
Lying shattered on my thin bones
My tears become impatient
Yet hidden they remain.
Courtney Roach
May 29, 2005
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Conundrum-
Cross your eyes
And I stand still
Your baby's breath
Is all but lasting
Your poison lingers
Inside my mouth
Fear is dancing
At your side
Love is aching
To reveal itself
Blood is falling
From within
I hear the darkness
And far too much silence
Fairies singing lullabies
Lulling you to shut eye
Death is waiting
At your side
Skeletons bearing more
Skin than you're wearing
Alive is just another place to be.
Courtney Roach
May 30, 2005
